Food

Ever feel like you already ate so much food, but there's still more to be had because nothing has registered in your stomach that you actually ate something? thats the way i have been feeling lately. theres never enough food, and its always unhealthy stuff if it is. i guess it doesnt help having a skinny roommate thinking that shes getting fat. but all that food she eats needs to catch up to her eventually. that annoys me. the food i ate in 7th grade found my hips in 8th and havent left since. catch up already! but still, shes a good kid at heart. i just wish my big mac box, granola bar wrapper, yogurt thing, box of cereal, and empty bag that used to contain strawberries would leave my sight so i wouldnt feel guilty eating even more.

FREEDOM

everyone on the byu campus will be free of their sorrows in 36 days. that is, whoever takes a final on the last day you can take them. isnt that amazing? 36 days. freedom...

and! matthew is going to come out here and help me drive home to the dirty. how exciting! i cant believe ill be able to hug my mom in just a little over a month. i miss her and her good cooking!

besides, knuck if you buck. honestly. just do it. and ill be able to go to a new house too! mi padres are moving! but, only like a minute down the road and across the street. whoa! so excited! what a wonderful life...

FREEDOM

waiting...

so im stuck inside the library. i cant come out. i shouldnt come out. just 5 pages. i can do it. then why have i been starting at a screen with 1 1/2 pages for the past 10 minutes? argh. maybe i should start things early. just maybe...

my life

i honestly love my life. no matter how many times i reiterate the fact that i hate it, i really really dont. how many people do i have that care about me? how many people do i care about? definately way too many to even think about counting. almost like the sands of the sea.

im happy. truely i am. i dont know what direction im going, whats going to take me there, or if even someone will be with me...but i know who i am.

i love my life.

My Bio

Charlotte Carter is currently a New Yorker and works as a freelance editor and proofreader. She has lived in France, North Africa, Canada, and Chicago and has a lifelong love for mystery fiction. She presently lives in New York.

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Garth Brook's "Till the River Runs Dry"

Country singers, sometimes they have the greatest insight. after reading liz's blog, i want to jump. jump long and jump hard.

"i'll never reach my destination if i never try, so i will sail my vessel, til the river runs dry."

where am i gonna get by sitting on my butt and waiting for life to come and find me? its not going to. maybe a few things here and there by chance-but nothing too fun and thrilling. i want to love. love to hard and so deep that it makes me want to cry. i want to feel the arms of someone who cares and desires to make me happy as i strive to give him the love the he deserves back. i want to cry and know that he is the one. i want to be the woman that i should be and stand out in a crowd in all the jumble of the world. i want to be me.

maybe thats the reason im into this whole dating thing. im ready to lose myself, but im not. im ready to feel something different for a change, or am i? even if im not, timing will play into it. im ready. let me fall, free fall after jumping off the biggest cliff of my life. i can do it.

friendship

in thinking about this, how do i get along with certain people? why can i talk to some, and not even want to express any emotion to others? why can girls understand some things, while mothers seem to be the only ones in the world to know the complete depth of anything.

what is it that makes me feel attatched to others and some i have just a small chemistry with? why does it happen the way it does?

stinkin questions. but i still love life because im finding deeper meaning everyday. i love my life.